Today, I finally had to face up to the fact that I am no longer fit and healthy, despite having been on medication for high blood pressure over the last five years, I had had no problems. Now I am just glad that I don't live on my own, in Colombia or any other Country for that matter, because it would have made no difference where I was. I totally lost the plot, it is the first time in my life, that I have not had control over my life, and seriously thought that was it!
This morning I forgot to take my High Blood Pressure medication, it was not the first time, but by mid-day I thought it was too late to take the tablets, and left it until tonight, this had happened before with no problems.
This afternoon, Marcela went out, I took Pépe out for a walk, it was very hot, but I thought nothing of it, on our return, I gave Pépe a brush, but this was then thinks started to go wrong.
As I started to get up, my focus went haywire, I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror, but everything looked fine, and yet I could not focus, despite blinking away. I went to the kitchen but I could not think where the pots etc. should be put, it was absolutely ridiculous, I always put everything away.
I went to the Office, the screen on my computer had locked, but again I could not work out how to open the screen, I couldn't understand what the block under my name was for, it was for the password, but at the time this meant nothing to me, and I had to shut one eye to stop seeing a myriad of everything.
I thought something seriously had gone astray, I admit I was frightened, whether it was because of my situation, I don't know, but the thought of taking medication never even went through my mind.
I went to bed, and sent a message to Marcela, however even this took twenty minutes, because I couldn't remember how to work my mobile, she came straight home, and brought my medication, again this did not click with me at all, I thought something had seriously gone wrong, but after she gave me my Blood Pressure tablets, I was fine, thank goodness Marcela realised what was the problem.
It is a horrible feeling, thinking that you have gone loopy, the relief knowing it was down to my BP medication was megga, I now know I will always be reliant on those tablets, and I can't afford to miss even one lot. I certainly don't want to go through that again.
The first three years of my Blog follow my journey settling in to life following my move to Colombia in 2012. After yet another a break from Blogging, I am back, but with a change of emphasis, due to health problems, I have been spending less and less time in the workshop, so decided I either had to close the Blog, or revert to it's original use...a diary! So thats what I am doing, it feels good to be back.
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